Welcome to Mama Quest

All I am and ever will be I owe to my mother…

Mama

Mama Alice and I embracing for a Christmas-time pic in 2002.

In 2006 my mother, Alice Muscarella, died. She died of cancer. It was probably that and a little bit of never putting herself first. Swallowed up in the old-fashioned notion that a woman is a mother and wife first, she never pursued the career she always wanted. And honestly, I’m not quite sure I know what that career was. I have some ideas though.

I know she was a wonderful mother. Her life was filled with exploration. She read constantly. To me, she had all the answers.

Looking back, I now see there is so much of the story I missed. Now I will embark on a quest to find out more about my mother’s life, goals, dreams, and, dare I say, skeletons? The goal is to create a documentary of my quest including interviews with friends and family. At its most basic, mamaquest will help me continue my relationship with my mother. By exploring her life and creating a forum to share all her wisdom, I will have a constant reminder that all I am and all I ever will be, I owe to my mother’s unconditional love and unwavering strength.

Also, I am currently applying for grant money to fund an exploration into the benefits of using art as an outlet to cope with trauma. Stay tuned.

My mother bought this for me. I think she and my dad decided that she would explain humility and subtly to me. I suck at the latter and I'm an apprentice when it comes to the former.

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3 responses to “Welcome to Mama Quest

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  2. This doesn’t look like its going to be an easy blog to read or write, but I admire your courage and I’ll definitely be reading.

  3. Jon Kolbe

    Lauren,
    I lost my mom to cancer too. I feel exactly the same way about her as you yours. I think you’ve found a wonderful way to share your feelings with the universe. I am sure she is proud of you 🙂 Looking forward to reading your updates.

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